Choices and Freedom

A world without choices
Told what to do and when
Where to be, what to say
I never want to live that way.

I have been given freedom
To choose between right and wrong
Some choices make me stumble and fall
Others help me to stand tall,

I have learned from my mistakes
Better understand where I went wrong
But without the choice to make
Chances I would never take.

Because of my opportunities
There is a world for me to explore
A world of mystery, horror and care
A world full of truth and dares.

I don't have a dictator,
Ruling over my every move,
But I have a God above
Who is pointing out His way with love.

I still have my freedom and choice
His presence doesn't change me flexibility,
But I know He has a plan for me
And on that path my life is at ease.

I know He is with me
That He will carry and cherish me
Whether I stumble or stand tall
As long as I am in His call.

It won't be an easy journey
Bumps and mountains along the way
But I know when I am following Him
I'll find His victory in the end.

Yes I have a Master
One who loves and cares
He has given me freedom
And I dwell forever in His kingdom

Pawn's Place

As the smallest of all the King's men
Pawn questioned his place
So he put on an attitude of pride with a grin
And let his journey begin

Pawn first came to Rook
"Am I one of the most important?
For the front line space I have took,
Go ahead and take a look."

Looking down on Pawn, Rook said,
"You little pea brain of a man,
Your life is as useless as a short piece of thread,
So easy for the Queen to shout, 'Off with his head!'"

Not receiving the answer he expected,
Little Pawn moved on to another in line
The one with the moves most hectic.
This time Sir Knight he did pick.

"My dear knight would you agree,"
Little Pawn began, standing tall
"That there is no one more precious than me,
For you never number even three."

"Poor Pawn, there may be more than two of you around,"
Started Knight in a low voice,
"But when it comes to covering ground,
Your argument is less than sound."

Discouraged but not broken,
Pawn focused his attempts on the wisest around
To Bishop his ideas were taken
Although trying hard to keep from shaking.

With less confidence, poor little Pawn began to say,
"Wise Bishop please tell me I am right
That in this game I am important at play
And in battle without me, we wouldn't last a day."

A creepy look crossed Bishop's face
Making poor little Pawn jump back.
"Mere maggot, don't you know your proper place?
Now watch me work and give me some space."

Two more to talk to, to understand his fate.
First to the mighty Queen
Reminding himself to stand up straight
To her he would present his debate.

He began "Sweet Queen I have a cry,
Please help me solve this problem
And excuse me if I pry,
But am I your most important guy?"

"You silly little Pawn, Why such a thought?"
She began with a smirk,
"Everyone has a position to be fought,
But you are not in the most important spot."

Poor silly little Pawn walked away with his head hung low.
Desperate to hear his reason for life
So to the King he must go,
There his reason for life he would know.

To the King he said on bended knee,
"Almighty King, I have searched across the board,
Inquired from all I could see,
Trying to understand why you would want someone like me."

"Dear Pawn, why so down?
What have you heard to make such a statement?"
The King's radiance shown from his crown,
Helping to lessen poor, little Pawn's frown.

"On the front line, I am one of eight,
An easy sacrifice in war,
Doesn't that seal my fate.
And my short distance moves, I'm sure you hate.

"I only move forward in battle, so I cannot retreat,
That makes me a terrible solider
Especially when near defeat.
Please King help me make this journey complete."

The King stood his ground,
Lifted Pawn's eyes to the sky
"That's exactly why I need you around
And in your spirit, My victory is found.

"Victory is only won by moving forward
Even if it is one step at a time.
And the whole time you are striving toward
A crown waiting for you across the board.

"You are the most important to me you see,"
The King said with love,
"So take and walk in this gift humbly
Because in your battles, you represent Me.

"And next time you question My want for you,
Come directly to me, my child.
For no one knows you like I do,
And my love abounds for you."

Pawn now knew his ultimate place
As a child of a king.
He could now walk in grace
With His King's mercy and glory shining on his face.

Let Go

My thoughts at night
Haunting my tired body
Is a never ending fight

Unable to move on
Lost in my sorrow
The weight on my shoulders is a ton

Letting go sounds so simple
But its more like a battle
Like running through a trapped temple

I want the same comfort
So many say they've found
But slowly dwindles my strength and effort

Put the sin and regret in the past
Embrace the joy from Him
The joy and peace that lasts

Be willing to give into His control
Put away my pride
Allow Him to revive my soul

I fight in pride
Stop this war, He fights for love
Forget my unhealthy stride

Its time to give in
Because I know once I let go
I am the true victor in the end

By His love and grace
Not by my own power or strength
And one day I will see my king face to face.

Privacy Fence

Six feet tall
Keeping her life closed in
Living her lonely routine
Without a neighborly grin

Lost in her own world
Keeping everyone out
Afraid to share with others
What she is really about

Its time to break down that fence
The wall built so strong
Climb over the top
Its been to long

Get out from behind the fence
Nothing wrong with privacy and secrets
But its time to show the real you
Open up before close ones split

Break down the privacy fence
Open the gate
Let others in
Its a step you need to take

Locked Up

What's this all about?
I'm locked in, nowhere to go
No back way out
As we see in the shows

The key is my only way out
My only way to freedom
I heart longs to be free
To finally escape to a kingdom

There is writing on the wall
"In you, you'll find the key"
What does that mean?
is my only plea.

Huddled in the corner
I search myself
My thoughts, my heart, my desires
My memories, my dreams of wealth

I felt a tug at my heart
As if someone trying to get in
A tug so strong
Trying to get my attention

As I closed my eyes
I heard these words,
"Let me in, I'll set you free"
My whole body was stirred

I've been locked up
Scared for my life
Doing things on my own
Trying desperately to survive.

Now you tell me all I need to do
is "let go"
Are you sure this will work?
I really don't know

I'm going to trust
this heart felt tug
Although I feel I'm shivering
Like a salted slug

I'm letting You in
into my heart, body, soul
Letting You take over
my dreams, desires, goals

I open my eyes
I'm still in this room
Nothing outwardly has changed
But I'm only physically doomed

My heart is at peace
I am where I should be
I can stand the locks
Because You are with me

I am locked on this earth
In this body for only so long
It is time to take my stand for You
And stand strong

You have given me the strength
To face my daily battle
Strength to break the locks
And all my trials tackle

I am free
Free spiritually
I am free
Free eternally

I am free
Free from this loneliness
I am free
Free from selfishness

I am free
Free to love You
I am free
Free to follow only You

Free to fly out of these walls on the wings of angels!

Change

Many of us fear it, wish it didn't have to happen,
try to go around it, or pretend that we are fine without it

But without change, we will continue to relive our mistakes
By going around it, we will miss the lessons from going through it
If we pretend we don't need it, we are only fooling ourselves
Because of our fear, we would never know the blessings afterwards

Its time for us to all change, the world would be a better place
Change our attitudes, actions, desires, language, thoughts
Change our hearts, minds, and souls that lead us to change for our future

Embrace the moments, people and dreams that lead us to change for the better
Learn from the past, don't dwell on the negative
Enjoy the present, strive daily for more
Be excited about the future, Don't fear the change that comes

Change starts today
Change starts from the inside out...from the heart to the head
Don't waste a day in fear...the change in us, changes the future

Doubt

My doubt over takes me
Questions running through my mind
Doing my best to press on
Leaving the sinful world behind.

But what about the things I've done
The sin I have commit
Am I fully forgiven
My ears can't hardly believe it.

After a life of disobedience
How could you forgive me
You knew I'd live this life of sin
But You still died for me on that tree.

I try to understand Your love,
Your grace and Your mercy
But I don't have Your eyes
To see the good, sinless me you see.

Give me the strength to understand
To fully accept Your unending love
This I know only comes from You
Your most precious gift from above.

You Don't Need Me

I want to be needed, In a world of needy people
Looking for the answers to life.
And in my desperation, I finally come to realize
The One I want to need me, doesn't need me at all.

You don't need me
You don't need my selfish actions
You don't need my wavering heart
You don't need my many lies
But You want me, You want me

I'm wanted by my Savior, my perfect example
And the answer to my life.
And through our time together, You've opened up my eyes
To help reassure me, I'm wanted in Your life.

You don't need me
You don't need my hateful thoughts
You don't need my painful words
You don't need my empty promise
But You want me, You want me

But You want me
You want to provide
You want to love
You want to give me everything
Thank You for wanting me.
Thank You for fulfilling my need.

Failure

I have tried so hard to live up to Your standards
To be the person that I am suppose to be
But every day seems to be a horrible struggle
Making me fail continuously

I have tried to
...say the right words
...act the right way
...give the right advice
...do my best not to stray

I fall back into my habits
The ones I want to quit
I feel I have failed you
I know I should not submit

I can't take it anymore
I'm a terrible person
But I have been forgiven
And covered by Your Son

It is refreshing to know
That no matter what I do
You don't see my sin
And I am loved by You

I renew my life to You
Be my only desire
Thank you for loving me
A sinner, a murderer, a liar

Take Time

"Take a moment out of your day
No matter how long
To just come and hang out

I've missed our conversations
I'm always here
I'm ready to talk when you are

You keep rushing around
Saying you'll get to Me later
But you haven't recently

What happened to your commitment
To spend time with Me daily
I'm here, where are you?

When ever you are ready
My arms are open
My ears are alert

Just come
Spend time with Me
I've missed you"

I hear Him say this to me daily
But I still turn and do my own thing
It's His time I am wasting
It all belongs to Him
I need to make the time
To spend with my Savior daily!

Forgiven

One step at a time
Thats all it really takes
To really start living
And move on from our mistakes

Don't worry about the past
For you have been forgiven

Hold onto what you know is true
Find strength to carry on
For His love is never ending
And new life begins at dawn

Don't worry about the past
For you have been forgiven

With each new breath
Of every moment, everyday
Gives us a chance to finally
Turn from our old way

Don't worry about the past
For you have been forgiven

DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE PAST
FOR YOU HAVE BEEN FORGIVEN

Only Hope

Only hope now drives me
Nothing else can do.

Only hope helps me
To daily get through.

Only hope shows me
The beauty in the morning dew.

Only hope allows me
To face what's new.

Only hope keeps me
Striving to be true.

Only hope gives me
Dreams of what to pursue.

Only hope strengthens me
To correct my view.

Only hope brings me
To places there are few.

Only hope pushes me
To truly follow You.

Lost and Found

I lost all my focus,
My dreams, desires, and drive
Nothing seemed to matter
There was no reason for me to be alive.

I lost all my reasons
For even trying to care
How am I suppose to deal with this
I wasn't sure I could bare.

I found the only way
To truly succedd in this confused world
Is to push my past behind me
And follow the One, True Lord

I found my true salvation
In the one who loved me first
And will continue to spend more time
With Him the more I learn to thirst.

No More

Me secret sin calls out my name,
My ears become alert
"Come on, one more time,
What could it really hurt?"
...
I use to agree with these lies
But I just can't anymore
I must turn my back forever
And keep running unlike before.
...
My Spirit has grown stronger
I'll live that way no more
It's time to get rid of the old
And step through a brand new door.
...
There is only one way I can do this
Through prayer and faith alone
Thank you Lord for Your forgiveness
And helping hand to lead me home.

Living

Open your eyes
Let go of your fears
Take hold of my hand
Wipe away your tears.
...
Trust me daily
And I'll let you see
What it means
To really follow me.
...
Leave your baggage
I'll show you how
To cleanse your heart
And start living now.

One Way

My head begins to hurt, which way should I go?

Must I really decide, because I don’t know.

What more can I do to better understand my choice?

I can’t stand it anymore I’m tired of that voice.

Left or right proves to be,

the most difficult decision for me.

My mind still tossing about what to do,

there are so many choices, yet so few.

Open my mind, look right in,

Its getting warmer and the ice is thin.

Its time to make my choice, which one is the best?

Will I be able to pass this horrible test?

How can I select what’s best in the end?

I have to decide no way to pretend.

For me there’s only one way.

I need to get on my knees and pray.