Tired

I'm tired of
...being used, tossed aside like an old rag
...trying to be there for you, knowing I'll get hurt
...the interruptions when I'm trying to talk with you
...the forgotten phone calls
...you bailing on commitments that we've planned

I hate
...your selfish attitude, that seems to get through
...not knowing if you'd be there for me
...hearing "You should have been there" but you never called
...the sudden change in plans with out consideration
...that I don't know how you will handle the things I've got to say

I feel
...our relationship has become one-sided
...we are growing apart
...things are very different than before
...I'm losing another friend
...that there's nothing else I can do

I loved it when we
...could talk about everything
...laughed at the stupid things we've done
...called each other, no matter what time
...hung out all night
...were there for each other 24/7

I want my old friend back
...the one that I could talk to
...the one who would talk to me
...the one who would call as promised
...the one who would remember our plans
...the one I love as a sister