Forever Family

My constant support
My my biggest fan
My best friend
My right hand man

Your trusting spirit
Your consistent prayers
Your loving smiles
Your unending cares

I can't thank you enough
I love you sincerely
I won't forget
I care for you dearly

Forever together
Forever free
Forever loving
Forever family

My funnest crew
My instigators
My travel partners
My trouble makers

Your loud laughs
Your funny jokes
Your crazy stories
Your slow pokes

I laugh still
I can't wait
I dream of then
I know our fate

Forever together
Forever free
Forever loving
Forever family

We smile
We stay
We sit
We pray
We laugh
We cry
We love
We try
Yesterday
Today
Tomorrow
Forever

Forever Together
Forever Free
Forever Loving
Forever Family

Tired

I'm tired of
...being used, tossed aside like an old rag
...trying to be there for you, knowing I'll get hurt
...the interruptions when I'm trying to talk with you
...the forgotten phone calls
...you bailing on commitments that we've planned

I hate
...your selfish attitude, that seems to get through
...not knowing if you'd be there for me
...hearing "You should have been there" but you never called
...the sudden change in plans with out consideration
...that I don't know how you will handle the things I've got to say

I feel
...our relationship has become one-sided
...we are growing apart
...things are very different than before
...I'm losing another friend
...that there's nothing else I can do

I loved it when we
...could talk about everything
...laughed at the stupid things we've done
...called each other, no matter what time
...hung out all night
...were there for each other 24/7

I want my old friend back
...the one that I could talk to
...the one who would talk to me
...the one who would call as promised
...the one who would remember our plans
...the one I love as a sister

Dream

I saw you in my dream last night
We were talking on the phone
I don't remember the conversation
But you were gone and I was home

We were about to hang up
When you said three little words
I remember stuttering "good-bye"
and my emotions were stirred

Am I ready to say these back,
Is this how I really feel
In real life if you said it to me
Would I have felt this zeal

You did not pressure me to say it back
Although I wanted to deep down
All I said was "goodbye, alright"
Which I bet left you with a frown

I felt excited, overwhelmed
When I hung up finally
Wishing you would call back
So I could hear it again more slowly

I woke up the next morning
With a huge grin on my face
It was only a dream
But what I wouldn't give for your embrace

Failure

I have tried so hard to live up to Your standards
To be the person that I am suppose to be
But every day seems to be a horrible struggle
Making me fail continuously

I have tried to
...say the right words
...act the right way
...give the right advice
...do my best not to stray

I fall back into my habits
The ones I want to quit
I feel I have failed you
I know I should not submit

I can't take it anymore
I'm a terrible person
But I have been forgiven
And covered by Your Son

It is refreshing to know
That no matter what I do
You don't see my sin
And I am loved by You

I renew my life to You
Be my only desire
Thank you for loving me
A sinner, a murderer, a liar

We Will Never Know

Taking a life is murder, no matter their age
Whether legal or not, the verdict does not change
You may think ending this life will make things easier
But in reality, for you and those you love, it only get harder
You may feel you can't raise the child on your own
But abortion ends the life of a child not yet grown

The child who would have
...kicked around in your tummy
...lovingly called you mommy
...cried for you when they were frightened
...wanted you to play pretend
...tried to trick you into eating dirt
...hugged you when they were hurt
...argued with you continuously
but loved you unconditionally

You will never
...hear their first cry
...see their first step
...touch their first macaroni necklace
...smell the dirty teenage laundry
...taste their wedding cake

Your child may have been the next
...John F. Kennedy
...Lady Bird Johnson
...Martin Luther King
...Mother Teresa
but now we will never know

They may have
...found the cure for cancer
...ended world hunger
...destroyed aids
...made world peace
but now we will never know

It's Time

It's time for you to grow up
Make some decisions for yourself
We won't always be there
To help your every step

It's time for you to act your age
Keep the commitments that you've made
Take on some responsibilities
And prove you can do it on your own

It's time for you to step up
Show what you are really made of
Put the childishness behind
Stand up and show your pride

It's time for you to give up
Those childish games you play
Make some hard choices
And stick to your guns

It's time for you to move on
Prove to yourself you can
Break some ties holding you down
And get ready for the future

It's time for you to realize
Procrastination will only go so far
Indecisiveness in annoying
And asking questions multiple times isn't cute

It's time for you to prove
To yourself it is possible
Problem solve by yourself
And stop running straight for help

It's time for you to start
Before you live on your own
Without someone to show you again
And give you advice you don't take

It's time for you to listen
To those trying to help
Learn from them before their gone
And you're left to discover on your own

Take Time

"Take a moment out of your day
No matter how long
To just come and hang out

I've missed our conversations
I'm always here
I'm ready to talk when you are

You keep rushing around
Saying you'll get to Me later
But you haven't recently

What happened to your commitment
To spend time with Me daily
I'm here, where are you?

When ever you are ready
My arms are open
My ears are alert

Just come
Spend time with Me
I've missed you"

I hear Him say this to me daily
But I still turn and do my own thing
It's His time I am wasting
It all belongs to Him
I need to make the time
To spend with my Savior daily!

My Kind Of World

I Wish I Lived In A World Where...
...Marriages lasted forever
...Fights only took place in a ring
...Children grew up with both parents
...Divorce wasn't an option
...Friends were open and honest
...Abortion was never thought of
...Hearts were never broken
...Guns were never invented
...Dreams came true
...Wars were just in stories
...Neighbors knew each other
...Everyone had equal opportunities
...Poverty was not in the dictionary
...People were seen by their strengths
...Differences were celebrated
...Students could share their faith in school
...Drugs were only used to treat sickness
...Children were never abused
...Alcohol was used in moderation
...Leaders were followed
...Sundays were kept holy
...Smiles were always worn
...Cancer, AIDS, and Malaria had cures
...Orphanages were never needed
...Bellies never empty
...Tears only happened while laughing
...Funerals celebrated life
...Clothes covered the body
...Churches were a place for worship
...Prayers were unselfish
...Hospitals were only used for births
...Families didn't have feuds
...Looks didn't matter
...Resources weren't wasted
...Teachers taught
...Trees were used for climbing
...Police weren't need at school
...Explosives were only used in fireworks
...Sweet dreams were possible
...Answers came easily
...Love never hurts
...The Unknown Soldier has a name
...Abstinence was the only birth control needed
...Hot water never ran out
...Peace was noticeable
...We actually stopped to smell the roses
...Disciple was used for direction
...Sports were played for fun
...Ends were met easily
...Only safe drivers took the road
...Rules were followed
...Free time was free
...Play wasn't an option
...Storms were refreshing
...Hope is alive
...Decisions were thought out
...Cars ran on tap water
...Praises were shared
...Bargains were found easily
...Living didn't cost an arm and a leg
...Couples grew old together
...Christ was in all our hearts

Many of these things I'll never be able to change,
But for the others I'll strive to do them daily
And maybe one day others will follow.

Too Young

Children are having babies, what's wrong with this world
Too young for the responsibilities
Too naive to realize the consequences
Too sweet for the struggle ahead

Most people blame the parents who are trying to make a difference
Too busy to notice
Too tired to keep tabs
Too hopeless to know where to start

The decision that'll be made will change every one's world
Too wrong for abortion
Too difficult for adoption
Too irresponsible for them to keep

In the end, it's that child's, that families decision
Too worried to think straight
Too confused to decide
Too lost for words

So what can those who love them do?
Unconditionally love them
Unconditionally support them
Unconditionally pray for them

Hurt Again

It's always been said that "Actions speak louder than words"
Every commitment broken
Every conversation you've forgotten
Has hurt me more than you know

I've tried to push all this junk behind me
Every time I've been hurt
Every time I've felt used
But recently I feel you don't care

We have talked about this in the past
But I can't tell if any of it really soaked in

It wouldn't be that big of a deal
Every repeated sting
Every hurtful let down
But you haven't only hurt me

How many times will I go through this
Every tearful night
Every uncomfortable phone call
Not wanting to talk because I am hurt so much

Sure we could talk again and again
But I really don't see you changing

Words I Live By

Stuck in the waiting room with anticipation
Hoping for that answer we all want to hear
Although knowing it may not come
We perk up when the doctor comes near

"I have some news for you today
Lets all have a seat and talk
And at any point just let me know
If you need a break or walk"

The doctor began "There is something wrong
His lungs are very cloudy
And we are not sure how much longer
You will have with you Poppy and Daddy.

"At this point there is nothing to do
But give him love and talk in his ear
He is unable to respond
But he'll know you're there"

I could not just sit there anymore
So we made a fast food run at eleven
With 12 different orders and tears in our eyes
knowing tonight he might go to Heaven

We returned with our arms full
And nearly dropped the food when we heard
"Hurry, go up stairs , he's awake,
And for each of you he has a word"

The elevator took forever
We pushed through the crowd
To talk to the man with a huge smile
Sitting in that bed so proud

The words he spoke to me
Will forever ring in my life
With a sweet smile and a gentle touch
His words cut deep like a knife

"God has a great plan for your life
He will use you in so many ways
Just remember how much He and I love you
And follow Him all of your days"

The next day he taught us Rummy
And joked with us like before
Leaving his room was so difficult
Knowing he may never walk through that door.

A month later, the Lord took him home
It was a time of tears, stories, and showing love
But I know that right now he's praising God
And watching me from Heaven above

How Do I Feel?

What are the correct words to use to
describe the way I feel about you?
. . . . . . . . . .
Do I LOVE you? I’m not sure.
I LOVE my family and closest friends
I know they will always LOVE me,
Be there to support and encourage me
I don’t know if we are there yet, but
I could see this in our future.
LOVE is just not the word right now.
. . . . . . . . . .
Do I LIKE you? I’m sure I do.
I also LIKE people when we first meet
I LIKE characters off of TV shows
I may know them now, it may not last
I think we are past this stage
There are many things I LIKE about you,
But I don’t feel LIKE is the right word
. . . . . . . . . .
When I think about our relationship,
I think of our long conversations about life
our times working together
I think of the music we’ve listened to
the jokes we’ve told
the moments we’ve shared.
. . . . . . . . . .
So I CARE about you! That’s the best way to put it.
I sometimes worry when I haven’t seen you
I get excited just to be around you
I pray for you when you share your heart.
I don’t know where we will be in the future
But always know there is someone who CARES about you.

The Secret

Open your ears and listen
To all I have to say
Are you sure you are ready
It may take all day

What I am about to say
Comes straight from the heart
I'm completely serious
I'm not making up this part

Once I have your full attention
I'll tell you a little secret
But you have to promise me
That you'll be able to keep it

No I'm not stalling
Just making sure it's clear
That this is something
You really need to hear

Now close your eyes
Let me prepare
To send this message
Through the air

Hear it comes
As I promised too,
The secret is
"I Love You!"